*knock knock knock*
Is this thing on? Anyone still here? If not, that's ok- no-one really listens to me ramble anyway.
Damn, it's been a minute. My kids are grown(ish) and I am old(ish). Definitely a lot to catch up on since my last post. I got a job that I love for a company that I love 🛫, my dad died, I grew depressed-the most depressed I've ever been in my life, my kids grew up and I got fat. really fat. I got lazy and unmotivated and really wanted nothing to do with life. My dad's death affected me more than I thought.
Then in 2023 I saw pictures of me. Really saw those pictures. Those pictures depressed me even more. How the fuck did I let myself get that out of control. I broke a bench at a family party. I was humiliated, so embarrassed.
My baby number 3 was set to graduate in 2024. She's also a varsity lacrosse player with Senior night looming. I did not want to be fat. I could not be fat. I had to slim down for pictures. So on May 8, 2023 I set out to lose weight. AND I DID!!!! 52 pounds to be exact! took me the year but I did it.
I slimmed down for pictures. I slimmed down for me.
And now... now that I don't hurt anymore, now that I have energy, now that I've allowed the depression to leave I have a goal. I big giant HUGE goal.
I want to run BOSTON
the marathon.
I want to run the Boston Marathon.
Why Boston? Because I fucking love Boston. Love everything about that city. The people the history, the scenery, the challenge...of Boston.
How am I going to get there you ask? I have no fucking idea. clueless. I just know I want to do it.
For my 50th birthday.
For me.
ALL for me.
that gives me roughly 3 years to figure this shit out. To get a plan in place, to get my running grove back.
I went to my orthopedic doctor, Doctor Lee (love him, he helped me out when I dislocated my hip 17 years ago) he took an MRI of my knee ( I fell off a curb like a dumbass and busted it up pretty good) told me to get some PT to strengthen that shit up and said I was good to start running.
So.. here I am. Back to sucking it up and runnnnning!!
I've been running/walking the trail near my house. It's about a tad over 2 1/2 mile loop with hills. I love it. For now.
Today's run was perfect. It was great. I did great. I felt great.
I'm setting out to run the Hot Chocolate race this November. I can't decide if I want to start slow and sign up for the 5k or if I should set my goal higher and sign up for the 10k. I still have time to decide. After today's run, I want to do the 10k. but how will I feel tomorrow? most likely dead
